Fallin' too fast, to stop..

In a loveless marriage, the kid's are the one's, who get hurt the most.. out of everybody.
Mother, nor Father, could say they had the most pain through it all..


I'm only a lonely 17 year old, Boy. not much out look in life..
My mother, left when I was around the age 4-5. my father died when I was a newborn, He sadly died of a car-crash.. I was told, by my grandmother.. that my mother became very Depressed, and started to hurt herself.
My grandmother took me in, when my mother moved away. At that age, I thought she was just going to buy something to eat.. Like what she said she was going to do..  I found out later in life, by my grandmother. that my mother called her to come pick me up... Because my mother said she wasn't coming back for me.
Of course then, I wasn't quite sure of what that meant.. But now that I'm older, and more understanding,
I know of.. the pain she was going through..

I was a planned kid,
I was told, that my mother, and father tried very hard to have me... I was, happy, that they
actually meant to have me.

My father was a business man, made more then a mil a year...
He's mother, a.k.a my grandmother. that helped me live, my life today. I'm thankful, for her!


On the everyday news, my family popped up, as one of the best families known.

This day, was none other then my 16 birthday. My Grandmother, let herself get known by being a model when she was in her early 20's, she worked for a nice man by the name of, Andy, warp's, fisher.
A very rare name, I know... Ha ha I don't even know if it was even a real name..
Probably just something his mom and pa put together..

Oh how sometimes, i wish i had a mom and pa..
Sadly i won't ever have them.. Or know, the feeling of love. that a ma, or pa can give you...


I got married at a young age, I had just turned 15.. and my girlfriend at the time,
known she was gonna have a other dude's baby, but didn't tell me.. When she told me, it was about a week after we had gotten married.. I told her no, I'm not gonna get in too this sort of shit.. and left her..  
Then her, and her baby's daddy got back together.. I was happy, that they were together again.. Not to sure, why though...


Running out of air,
My last breath took to much out of me.. Laying on me back.. Thinking of my first kiss, first love, and also the last.. Laying, just dying in that hospital bed. I'm supposed to only have three weeks left to this, sad ending story book.. My one wish was in life, was to at least meet my mother.. So i could know, what kind of person she was.. I guess, god only helps those, who already have it all.. But i forgive him, for turning his back, away from me.. He's given me so much, and now gonna take it all away..  I only wish, i could al least.. Tell my first love, I loved her... I was always shy around her, she once asked me if i hated her.. i said, Of course not..
But the word's of love, never pulled through my soft light pink lips.  Therefore, i give it all up.. In a latter set to send to her, the day of my death..

Oh, and by the way.. My name, is Kyle..
I have light brown hair, deep blue eye's, light pink/pale lips, I dress sorta Emo, i guess..
I don't go, full into it, like wearing makeup, and that sort of stuff.. But, i do wear dark shirt's and pant's...
So i guess, kinda Emo? I don't know..
But my grandma, was always happy with what i did in life, no matter how (dumb).. She, still loved me.. And I loved her.. My grandmother, always said, "You better not die before me.." Kiddin' around of course.. (but i cannot, stop what happens in life.. Nor, can this god person..)


Oh and by the way, my grandmother's name is Kelli. So that's what that is..


And now, my final day has came..
laying on my back, the girl finally got the latter i sent..
...But she did do one thing, that no one would seeing coming..  She *ran in the hospital room, crying*..
Screaming "Why, why did you have to tell me like this... In a fucking latter, really?" "Ah, hm?.."-Me:
"I've loved you, too!"  My heart then stops, she screams at me.. nothing will stop this.. God-"Do, you still not believe in me, My son, of son's?" "No, no this can't be..."Me: "What happening, it's all 'Cause you stopped believing, now isn't that right...  Now come with me, too the haven's we shall go.." He then pull's my soul from me body, I'm still in my body as he is doing this.. I hold out my hand, and he takes me away..
But in this moment, my dearly beloved, is laying on the floor next to me just, just crying..

"I warn you this, You will go to the haven's if you come with me right this every moment.. and you can stay here, and live out you're whole life... Now which is it going to be, My son?"-God  "Please, let me stay.. I cannot leave her all alone.. Please! I beg you!"Me: "If that is what you want.. Then, next time, I can't promise you, you'll make it to haven.." and the light around him, leave's the room, and so did he.



5 week's later,
my 18 birthday, I'm happily married to her, the girl's name is isabella.. and I've loved her for so long..


And so end's the story, I have to tell...
Please, enjoy your own way of life... I know, i sure did..

I might have never known my mother, but even so... I've loved her, for having me.
And isabella and I, are having are first child.. she is now 4 weeks pregnant.. I couldn't be more happy.
and my grandmother, gave me a old family picture book, of my mother and father in it.. Time to start, a new page in this long story book... Where we, live happily ever after..